[ It's tempting. The other easy way out. A sleep until Dean returns, except...
Cas thinks, briefly, of Skye's tears and the mentions of Eddie.
Thinks, even, of Castiel, and the horrible tremor of his grace in shambles. Cas' existence may have no point, he might be surplus and not needed, but it doesn't mean there's not work to be done. Who else will think to handle their pain in Dean's absence?
No one ever watches over them - over Cas or Castiel. So Cas cannot allow himself to be the subject of Castiel's guard, when Castiel has no one to return the favour. It's not fair - it never was, to either of them.
So he shakes his head minutely, reaches up and wraps his hand around Castiel's wrist. Cas' fingers are cold. They tremble. ]
Just one night. It's enough.
[ His grip flexes, briefly, and then he slides his hand into Castiel's, brings his other up to cup it. Holds Castiel's hand there, tender in his despair. ]
It's enough, I promise.
[ You're enough. You always were, but no one ever told you, and now look at me, please don't look at me. ]
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Cas thinks, briefly, of Skye's tears and the mentions of Eddie.
Thinks, even, of Castiel, and the horrible tremor of his grace in shambles. Cas' existence may have no point, he might be surplus and not needed, but it doesn't mean there's not work to be done. Who else will think to handle their pain in Dean's absence?
No one ever watches over them - over Cas or Castiel. So Cas cannot allow himself to be the subject of Castiel's guard, when Castiel has no one to return the favour. It's not fair - it never was, to either of them.
So he shakes his head minutely, reaches up and wraps his hand around Castiel's wrist. Cas' fingers are cold. They tremble. ]
Just one night. It's enough.
[ His grip flexes, briefly, and then he slides his hand into Castiel's, brings his other up to cup it. Holds Castiel's hand there, tender in his despair. ]
It's enough, I promise.
[ You're enough. You always were, but no one ever told you, and now look at me, please don't look at me. ]